The last three days forms a little chapter as you'll see. On Thursday night, I made some "healthy" fudge from Dr. Fuhrman's recipe site, containing mostly almonds and dates and coconut and I used carob instead of cocoa since I can't handle the caffeine in chocolate. It really wasn't that great, yet I still ate too much on Friday morning--at least half the pan. Well, I learned once before that if I eat too many nuts, I get sick. Yet I did it again. So later on that day, since I figured I was on a splurge, binge I should say, I also ate 2 vegan chocolate chip cookies (I went to the co-op to get some rice to make housemate happy and I got the cookies then), and a bowl of red beans and rice. Besides the fudge I actually didn't eat that much, but of course, the fudge. I started getting a stomach ache that evening. Then I was sick all the rest of the night! On Saturday, I still didn't feel that great and was afraid to eat so ate nothing. I slept really well Saturday night, felt great on Sunday, and cautiously began eating again, so I had:
Breakfast: about a half cup of a fruit smoothie (made for housemate) and a small clementine.
Lunch: steamed zucchini. this was really good. oh the simple things. a few cherries for dessert.
Dinner: steamed carrots and broccoli. another clementine. a few cherries.
I think tomorrow I can go back to normal eating. I think I'll try not to overeat. I feel better when I don't. This episode makes me think I have a problem with sweets. If I don't eat it, I'm fine. But if I start, I seem to lack control for stopping it. When I was growing up, we hardly ever got desserts. So that probably explains why I was so skinny. Then when I went to college, I didn't have good control when it came to sweets and I gained about 30 lbs. Then somehow it came off after college and I was normal again and didn't eat sweets much. I think I'm experimenting now with how much sweets I can take with these "healthy" recipes and it seems to be not much.